love.

i got to thinking about a lot of things today.  hours and hours in a car with nasty weather will do that to you.  i started thinking about love.  there are so many different types of love, and i hate that.  just because apples and oranges are both fruits doesn't mean they're the same.  we all have different kinds of love for different kinds of people.

back when i started dating my now husband, i wanted to keep the kind of mad, whirlwind love we had.  it happened so fast.  love at first sight?  not quite, but i sure was crazy about him.  i wanted it to last, i wanted to feel that rush of romantic love forever.  needless to say, it didn't last.  you fall into patterns and routines and you get so used to each other that well, it's not the kind of love that takes your breath away anymore. but it's the kind of love that i love the most.  the "old people still together after 60 years of marriage" kind of love.  i like nothing more than to fall asleep on the couch, the cat sleeping above my head, him playing video games, a comfortable kind of love.

what's so wrong with that?  i think people get so hung up in the kisses and roses that we lose sight of what love really is.  just wanting to be around another person, not having to talk to them or engage them.  you just want to be in their company.

i have a habit of saying "i love you".  i didn't used to, though; it took me a long time to be able to say it.  i wouldn't tell my family i loved them because it wasn't cool.  i wouldn't tell my school boyfriends i loved them because that felt too weird.  and then i met the crew, who used those words so freely it drove me crazy.  and probably because of them, and because i love them so much, i say it all the time.

i leave the house in the morning and those are the last words i say to my husband. i hang up the phone with my best friend in the world and i tell him i love him.  i always tell my parents and family i love them, every time i depart, whether its when i see them or when i talk to them.

maybe i use it too much but i'm just full of love these days.

i suppose this is a post to everyone who reads this blog.  probably because i know its only good friends and family, but just so you know, i think you're fabulous.

and yes, i love you.