back to reality.

i started this blog four months ago when i came home after a long 8 months of being on the road.  plans were finalized this week.  i return to the skies mid-month.  i'm still not sure how i feel about this.

i started writing because sometimes i think i took for granted the minutiae of everyday life.  routine.  comfort.  i think i like the boring parts of life more than the exciting parts just because i feel more at home.  i needed an outlet to make sure i started thinking about life as more than just vacations and holidays and huge change-your-life moments. thus, the blog came to life.

i'm really glad i like my job as much as i do, because that makes everything easier.  i chose this position this time around and i'm very thankful to be given the opportunity to keep doing something i'm really good at, but i've gotten so settled back into my minutiae that i don't know how i will trade normalcy for constant change.

i preach change, i teach change.

i can't handle change.

i'm not thrilled about trading 7:30 alarm clocks for 4:00 alarm clocks (that 5:30 to charlotte's a bitch), my 5 minute car ride to work for two and a half hours in the sky.  my bunn coffeemaker and bubba keg for starbucks from concourse d in charlotte. (it's always less crowded than the one near the concourse c security checkpoint.  yes, these are things i have to take into account on a weekly basis.)  but i am excited about trading apathy and disinterest for excitement and appreciation, maid service and waffle wednesdays. being surrounded by like minded people that share my work ethic and strive for improvement.

i will miss being able to run on wednesdays and fridays.  i will miss coffee with the girls.  i will miss waking up in my own bed 7 days a week.  i will miss my poor attempts at home cooked meals, feeding the cats every morning, and the cries of "medic!!" as thomas plays team fortress.  i will miss inevitably falling asleep on the couch.

but it's a stepping stone to something better, i'm certain.

right?

the cure for all ills.

what a shit week.  i'll admit that i am having problems adjusting to life in one place.  i got so used to traveling and working ridiculous hours and not being able to exercise or having to do laundry or clean up after myself that i'm seriously having some issues.

this is what life looks like:  i am a freaking mess.

the stresses of everyday life are many, and to top it all off, i'm like an emotional sponge.  i take on everyone else's problems somehow and this week there have certainly been many.  i'm worried about my family, my friends, my job, and it's all coming to a head.  but i felt better tonight than i have in a while.

i have a friend that i met in college.  we had lots of classes together, but she didn't live on campus, so we didn't get as close as we probably could have.  now she lives in the same town as me and i get to see her more frequently, but still not often enough.  after weeks of not hanging out, we finally got to sit down and have a chat over giant cups of coffee.  it's so great to know that there are other people in your life that are having similar feelings or know what you're going through.  sometimes i think we all just need a sounding board to know that we're not alone and help us work through our issues.  i am truly blessed to have her in my life!

i am so thankful for great friends and a cup of coffee.  even though eventually i'll have to deal with life (life is tough, get used to it), i'm convinced that as long as you have both of those, everything else in life can just fall away for an hour or two.