changes.

i hadn't posted anything here in a long time. months of angst that i didn't want to put out onto the internet kept me from doing so, and also that i honestly didn't think anyone read this. this afternoon my brother mentioned something about my blog and i realized just how long it had been. so here we are. this is what life looks like, folks.

i am getting divorced. i am living with my parents back home. i am trying my hardest to figure out myself, my dreams, my life and get back to doing things that make me happy. i am confident that this is all for the best. a month into all this, i am unbelievably thankful that i can say all of that. this whole process has made me so thankful for what i have, and has also made me realize the things i need in my life. my family is the best support system in the world, carrying me every step of the way and dusting me off the days that i stumble, and trust me, there have been more than enough of those.

so let it be written. i am back. life looks much different than it used to. let's start looking at things with a new set of eyes.

i leave you with one final depressing photograph. this was taken the first night i wasn't allowed to sleep in my home. it was a reminder of how things were going to look from that point on: unfamiliar, things that used to be there no longer, new favorites, and one that has always been there. kind of comforting and unbelievably saddening at the same time. but that's just the way things are now. one day at a time.